19/03/2018

Life it seems may be short, may be long

So,
Finally got back here.
Had some devastating news regarding my health.
No-one actually gives a shit.
Going for surgery next week.
Transformation, maybe rejuvenation,
Maybe the beginning of the end.
I've got a terrible year ahead.
Life might be short,
May be long.

Twistidd out.

26/05/2016

Wow that was negative

Just read my last post.

It's a bit negative, isn't it. Well nothing really has changed. I have finished an academic paper which might or might not be published. No news is ... no news.
I'm still teaching piecemeal, but might have bitten off a bit more than I can chew at the moment.
It's nearing the end of semester and I have so much marking to do it's ridiculous.
Most of which isn't paid for. (humph).

Oh I have a market stall happening on June 4th. I'm going to attempt selling my jewellery. My first foray into merchandising and retail. How interesting will this be?

Twistidd out.

28/02/2016

Jewellery and other such compulsive behaviour

Hi All,
I've been busy making jewellery. Why? Well obviously it's not for selling, I've barely sold any. My lovely sister gave me a massive box of beads over summer, and I offloaded a whole bunch of my previously made jewellery at a gallery in Balmain.
The gallery is called Breathing Colours and the owner keeps on forgetting who I am and that I have quite a bit of jewellery exhibited at her joint.I am another nobody, a forgettable nothing.
So why do I continue to make the stuff? Well (and here I must mention that I made the first title of this containing the word "addictive" but strictly speaking wanting to do something like this is a compulsion. I learned that little error after my monstering after my TEDex talk on gaming). I find it relaxing. It keeps my mind off the disappointments in life.
And disappointed I am indeed. It seems no matter how hard you struggle, you study, you work hard, that no-one wants to employ an intelligent 50+ woman with a PhD.
So I bead. It keeps my heart full and my mind calm.
I'm so jacked off with the whole employment thing that I feel I want to quit this struggle. And why not? I've paid off the flat. I'm paying off the investment house.
I swear I'm overdue an overseas trip. I'm overdue luck. I'm overdue success. I suspect that my luck has run out. I took all my good fortune for granted and now I'm struggling working piecemeal in an industry that doesn't employ people like me full time, let alone permanent.

Now I shall stop whinging and get back on that mother fucker of a horse and keep on riding.

Twistidd out.

30/04/2014

Long time no blog

Well I've been working as usual, just had a little holiday. Went up to Coffs to stay with a friend who has bought a farmlet up there. DJ stayed and worked, but Kate and I had a wonderful time. Really lovely time, marred by the fact that I've had a belly wog for the past few days. I hope it's food poisoning and not gastro, as I don't want anyone else to get it.
I'm become resigned to the concept that after five years of hard slog that I'm probably not going to get a gig as an academic, so I'm still hanging on like grim death with my "casual" teaching job - which is more than a full time load. I find the inequities so much more than I can bear to think about. So I don't.
Society here is mooching along. Abbott is making the same mistakes that all politicians do. The greens are increasingly looking like the voice of sanity, and Shorten hasn't quite found his sea legs yet. MH370 is still missing. Who would have thought in this day an age that an entire airliner could just vanish? It's such a wonderful (and tragic) mystery.
 I really haven't paid too much attention to this blog in the past year, I've been busy blogging on tutorials over at http://www.chatteuracademy.com. I've also been madly instagramming. I really enjoy taking photos, but DJ doesn't seem to think too much about it. He has been hinting that I should buy a decent camera, but I think that's because he would like to use it. I don't know that I mentioned that he bought a new car a year ago. I just love it. I don't drive it too often, but it's just lovely. Great choice. We drove it up to Coffs and it makes driving a pleasure.

04/10/2013

It's been a while

Long time no blog. I've been busy teaching, graduating, looking after little one and generally not blogging. I've passed through my Words with Friends addiction and facebook in general, which is now still useful, but not quite as compelling. Gone onto Instagram. Addicted. Mmmm. Also back into e-learning, writing a report for the college. We'll see what comes with that.

08/11/2012

And so the castles come tumbling down...

  Well summer is definitely on the way and change is in the air. Barack Obama was re-elected yesterday and the mood is historic. (Think everyone is sighing a bit of a sigh of relief as the other bloke was a bit of a scarey "I'll say anything for a vote" kind of guy.)
I'm officially looking for work, as the sand castles we have been building at TAFE are about to come tumbling down, thank you liberal government. I don't quite understand how training for the future has become such a slash and burn area. Three liberal governments slashing education funding. I'm afraid credibility of the liberals is getting a bit thin on the ground. Considering the Premier's love dance with James Packer and his casino.
But then again I'm an education evangelist, so I'm speaking with a coloured view. I'm quite excited by responsive design, and I'm going to have a go at teaching it next semester to the TV guys. I think it will work. I hope it will work. I must investigate the apple educational authoring platform that came out last year. Guess I need a mac for that. Mmmm.
Got my new laptop, very excited. Spent quite a bit of time filling it with software. Now to get busy with it. Got to get my subscription area working on wordpress and get some videos on it over summer. Why not?
E-learning development is what I do, but I'm not giving away my resources for free...I spend hours developing courseware content. It's mine... all mine precious....

24/09/2012

How nice is this?

I'm on term break and it's a gorgeous day! The small one wanted to go into childcare for a couple of days to play with friends, so she's having a good time. The sun is out and I can smell the delicious aroma of jasmine on the air. We have it growing wild in the park outside our balcony. I'm listening to the lovely Kathrin DeBoer of Belleruche on the computer as I mark my students work. It's just so lovely! In other news, DJ has a job now, so we're okay. Bad news is that the abhorrent Barry O'Farrell has slashed education's budget by some 1.7billion dollars in the past few months. So the question is, do I look for a new job or just look for other sources of income? OH I'm just loving Belleruche's album...

21/07/2012

Finally the journey is over!

The thesis is in, finished, marked, bound and nothing else to do. I handed it in a week early and it's the first of the crop for the faculty this semester. Looking forward to being at the graduation in November. I am supposed to get a letter confirming that it's all good. Can't wait. Now for the next chapter in life. I'm so relieved. It took an additional 6 months to get it marked due to the fact that one of the markers couldn't get it done in time. I doubt I could have done it without the help of the wonderful Dr Jennifer Gamble, thesis wrangler extraordinaire. She is so kind to say that it's a good one. Somehow it seems like a denouement to see the thing sitting on my bookshelf. Is that it? Two whole copies in the world. Who's to see it? Who's to comment on it? Must get some papers done. I've been so busy. Hopefully I'll be able to get some things done this semester. So much to do, so little time.... Yay yay yay. I wish I could celebrate, I'm so broke at the moment...

13/02/2012

More outrage

Well I only seem compelled to write here when I have a gripe about something. Again, it's about corporate greed. Our reserve bank, in its wisdom decided to maintain interest rate levels this month, when all the pundits appeared to plump for a rate cut. Well the banks aren't happy with their record profit and seem to want "growth" in their business when healthy profits should suffice. So out comes the axe, in times when finding work is terribly hard, and 1000 ANZ staff are to find new employment. This is on top of 650 announced staff cuts at Westpac last week. On top of this, all four of the big banks here in Oz decide that no, we're not happy Mr Reserve Bank Governor. We wanted to get our profits when you cut the interest rate, by not passing on the full cut. So what we're going to do is PUT UP THE INTEREST RATES of our loans.
In a time when Greece is self-emoliating, when Italy is terribly dodgy, the USA is a basket case, not to mention the state of Ireland and Portugal.
So the lending business is softening, because NO ONE CAN AFFORD HOUSES and everyone is so unsure of the global economy. So you put up interest rates. Right. So where's the logic in that?
In other news the lovely Kate read a whopping 68 pages of Green Eggs and Ham before bed tonight. Year One is going to be a challenge, heaps of homework. Bless them all.

29/10/2011

We are the 99%

On what planet is it ok for the CEO of QANTAS to get a 71% payrise in THESE economic conditions?
I mean FUCK the corporate greed. How about these executives get the measly 2.5% that the rest of us are granted? What productivity improvements warrants this type of increase in salary?
I am a peace loving person who abhores violence, but when I saw the news about the shareholder meeting I actually felt like buying a gun and shooting the CEO of QANTAS. (Not that I personally mean the gentleman any harm, just so you know).
Corporate freaking greed. There should be a law that sets the salaries of these assholes. Either that or a revolution and get them all lined up against the wall. Instant distribution of wealth. This is the sort of irresponsible behaviour that got rid of Louis the 14th in France during the revolution. Executives as the new ruling class. Excess wealth and greed of corporations dictating government policy. Abject poverty for the masses.
All sounds like something from Bladerunner to me.

21/10/2011

Summer's on its way

So the smell of bushfire is permeating Sydney today. It's control burn time, and the temperature soared to 30 degrees, well it did when I was noticing.
Quite a chilled time today, I got the students to work on their assignments. Colour theory will require something special, methinks. At the moment it's all about evaluating design in an industry context.
Mark tells me there will be plenty of work around next year, so we'll see how that all goes.
Onwards and upwards. We might go swimming tomorrow. Yay!

04/09/2011

Birthday Ironing

So it's fathers day. And my birthday. We liked celebrating together. Had a few little pressies then went out for lunch. Chequers at the Mandarin centre got closed down, I suspect due to fines from the health department. So our favourite yum cha place was gone. We went instead to a new Japanese restaurant nearby. OMG. Devine! We really loved the food. Pig out time.
Came home and DJ did some study, I did some ironing and Kate played with a game on my phone (yes finally got an iapp voucher!). Now my life will be filled with gaming.
I must re-install wow and get back into that too.
Now my PhD is in I'm wondering what next?
The day was lovely today, and this afternoon while DJ was studying, I took Kate to the park for an extended play. Heaps of fun. She ran around so much that she fell asleep in the car on the way home. DJ went out to see Omar.
Six o'clock and she's still asleep. The ironing beckons.
Got "Sucker Punch" to watch tonight. Should be fun.

31/08/2011

So what now?

I think I am suffering from withdrawal. I don't know what to do. I have all this time on my hands.
I suppose I can submerge myself in TV, but that all seems so pointless. So at the moment I'm catching up on my marking and getting some actionscript done.
My lovely brother is coming up on the weekend. He's going to see his accountant and I suspect coming to see me for the birthday.
It's Laid, so DJ's gone off to see some friends to celebrate. I suggested he involve his family, but he said it's just old men sitting around, just to make it seem uninviting.
Kate had a temperature the other day. DJ took her to the Children's hospital yesterday for hemotology tests. We don't want what happened to Bretty happen to her, now do we? Better safe than sorry.
Anyways, Andy is still O.S. I must get my ethics report done.

29/08/2011

Submission!

Oh my goodness, these two weeks have been very stressful. We managed to print and bind the PhD last Friday, only to discover that an entire chapter was missing! Also some spelling mistakes and general rattiness. So we had to go back, re-edit and do it all over again.
The lovely Jen, who was helping me edit the thing was very very upset. No worries, if that's the worse that ever happens, life will be good. We had time to resubmit, so no problemo!!
We worked over the entire weekend getting it back into shape and we reprinted last night and today the lovely Jen resubmitted. Her blood is worth bottling. What a champion.
I know Andy's none too happy with the quality of the writing, but I'll have a chance to tweak after the assessors have had a chance to look at it. I noticed I lost focus when I re-read it so some further clarity is required. At the very least, it's in, it's done, and I can take some time out to do other things.
My gorgeous daughter Kate was so good hanging out at Uni over the weekend. We had lots of colouring in and stuff for her to do. What an amazing child. If it wasn't for DJ, I wouldn't have found all of the errors, as he told me to go back through it in detail. What a team we are.
I will ever be in their debt, the lovely Jen, DJ and Kate. And Andy too. This project would not have been achieved without them.

04/08/2011

Ian Trout Passes

Very sad, this week Ian passed away after some months battling with cancer. I saw him last week, and I will miss him very much.
A legend in Australian gaming, Ian Trout and his partner my dear friend Roger Keating have published over 50 gaming titles. From the classic "Reach for the Stars" through to the games I was involved in, Warlords Battlecry, Warlords II, III and Reach for the Stars 2. Once of his latest works was Carriers at War.
I consider myself part of the Trout extended family, although not related, he has been like a grandfather to my daughter and a great support to me.
I will miss his erascable wit, incisive clarity of thought and no-nonsense attitude.
Gregor Whiley, SSG's producer and Roger Keating have been at port at the safe harbour of TAFE for the past few months during Ian's illness, helping us out teach the next generation of game developers.
I am really looking forward to SSG firing up the engines again for the the next great battle in the world of strategy gaming.
God bless you Ian. I loved you like a father and will miss you terribly.

17/06/2011

End of semester madness

Well, it seems to me that the students this semester are just stressing out more than usual. I had one student scream at me today because I insisted that yes, he had to do his assignment.
I mean wtf? Like because you get an exemption because you're special?
Mmm. Not happy me.
In other news, it's half past two in the morning and I'm up to write some PhD.
The good news is I've had some sleep, so nice. Bad news is Andy isn't happy.
I can't wait for this to be over. I need my life back.

In extra special good news, a very dear friend of mine, Lucila, has just scored herself a nice job. Very happy about that. Extremely good news indeed. No, I'm not allowed to say what the job is, but I'm very very happy for her.

12/05/2011

More PhD madness

Still writing. Saw Mary yesterday and she seems happy with progress. She says that I should be able to get it finished. Peter Goodyear also said he'll take a look at it and I've got a lady called Jennifer Gamble to help me edit.

So writing, rewriting. More writing. Teaching, eating, sleeping, writing.

In other news, kidneys seem to have settled down thanks to Cranberry juice, and my fingers are not as swollen. Doctors are rubbish. Pain is gone, which is nice, and I think I'm looking less pale. So hopefully things are better on the health front.

I want to get this thesis over so I can get on with other things in my life. Way too long. Andy is a god for being so patient with me.

Onwards and upwards.

20/04/2011

Been a while

Well it's April, and I'm up to my 10th draft of my methodology chapter, my 6th draft of my evaluation chapter and I'm not even close yet. It will end in tears. I think I need to concentrate on getting my Qualitative evaluation done, and then refine, refine, refine.

I can see the light. I can also see the stress.
Kate is in Canberra to give me a breather. I am wasting time, but working well at night. So keep on keeping on.

Other news, DJ went for a job interview today. Hope he gets it. And my lovely sister got BOTH jobs she applied for in Canberra. Go girl! Stephen, however, lost his job. So it's swings and roundabouts on the job front.

Tony and Jen have a spanking new home, monsterous from all accounts.
So all good in the world. Keep on keeping on.

27/02/2011

Well, still in Sydney

Well I didn't get the job. Which means that I was not meant to get it.
Destiny seems to be keeping me in Sydney, at TAFE, doing PhD. Not sure what it all means but there's no use railing against it.
Work has started for another year, another batch of 70 or so students to inspire. Yay the creative arts!!
Back at the farm, Kate has learnt how to dive. Trying to get her to breathe properly when she swims. Trying to get her to do the arms. Diving, quite successful.
I'm getting there with the writing too, slowly slowly. A bit too slowly, methinks.
In other news DJ has been selected for Jury duty. No more information forthcoming. Don't know how long he will be there, don't know anything about the trial.
Which means all is as it should be.
Summer is slowly winding to an end. We're having lovely weather. Warm enough to swim, interspersed with cooler days.
And so life continues....

22/01/2011

Job interview

Just went to Canberra for a job interview at my old uni, no less.
Really went well, but I guess it depends who I'm up against. Really encouraging, however.
Actually had a really nice time with Mum and Dad too, so it was all a bonus.
Tan is looking a bit happier than I saw her last, which is fab. Saw Natalie's dad Norm, it was his 80th birthday.
So all in all, very exciting.

On verra. Let you know Monday when they let me know.

Now. Back to the thesis. Write write write.